Seven years ago I began a journey. A journey which has led me to places I never dreamed I would go, people I never believed I could ever meet, let alone form friendships with. A journey which led me from the deep blackness of grief and depression back into the light. A journey which has led me to this point today... Today I took my signature painting "The Triple Goddess" off the wall and put her back on my easel. Seven years ago, I painted her. She hasn't been finished all this time. Until now I have been looking for the final pieces to complete her. Today, this morning, I found them all. Yesterday, in a small box in my treasure chest, I found a piece of malachite. I looked at it, caressed it and then put it aside. This morning I woke up after a dream and went straight to the malachite and picking it up, I walked down the hallway and placed it in the centre of the mandala. It was a perfect fit. It was just perfect. So this morning, I took the Triple Goddess down and began to repaint her. The malachite waits on the altar... Malachite has been called the "mirror of the soul". It is variable in its condition. It reaches the inner feelings of the person and reflects what is there, negative or positive. It will always reflect how you feel, if you feel negative don't wear Malachite. It reminds us that we have a dual nature and it is up to each person to know and rule his own person. Malachite is a birthstone for the zodiac sign of Libra (me) and is just perfect for the heart centre! http://www.shimmerlings.com/gemstones/malachite.htm#HEALING and reach for the stars, with love... Words by Drew Kimble from the Skinny Artist, Image copyright Marg Thomson
I have been dreaming a lot lately as I always do, but these dreams have been deep and disturbing and unsettling. This morning I dreamed I was heavily pregnant and I gave birth by caesarean section to a beautiful little boy who later became a little girl, morphing from new born to 6 months and back again in various episodes of the dream. Surprisingly it left me unsettled, possibly because the sound track that was playing at the time was Pilates Dream from the rock opera Jesus Christ Superstar. The thing with dreams is that they tend to haunt me, especially the deep disturbing ones, so this one is percolating around my mind as I go about my day, wondering what it means and why this song is so poignant... I pulled a card from my deck, the Mandala Meditations Guidance Cards and it is Metamorphosis. Number 13 - unlucky for some, but one of my most favourite numbers. I was going to put it back and draw another to see if I could get one that I haven't posted before, but I laughed at myself. It's THIS one that's relevant, THIS one that has the greater meaning - not just for myself but for everyone. METAMORPHOSIS MANDALA Circle of Life Transformation of Love Getting of Wisdom Passage Through Change Release Burdens Speak with love. Speak your love. Speak Love. There is nothing to fear. Let go of the things that weigh you down. Let go of the people who no longer align with your journey towards joy and peace. Heal the places within. Through love, you grow. Let go. I had just been reading a wonderful blog post by Drew from the Skinny Artist called "Let It Go". Beautifully timed and perfectly apt for this fresh and still Melbourne morning.
Letting go has always been so very hard for me. The whole concept screams failure to me - and yet, it is in the letting go that we find true freedom. Freedom to live the life we have always dreamed of. Freedom to be the person we choose to be. Freedom to be alone and lonely if we so choose. Freedom to give up. Freedom... Scary isn't it? I believed once that letting someone go was giving up. Failing. Letting go implied that I was at fault, that it was me who was the problem. I thought that if I let someone go, something bad would happen and I would never see that person again. So many of those fears and beliefs are from a part of me that is long gone. A past where I had little trust in the world and even less in myself. A long ago time when I simply survived, I didn't live. I have grown so much since then. I am no longer the frightened child, the wounded adult. I am whole and almost complete. It is time to let go of all that was and might have been and step into all that is and could be should I choose to make it happen. I have that power now. Do you? xoxox Love and Blessings Marg My new mandala has just been finished. It was an interesting experiment in colour and crying LOL. Apparently working with the heart chakra green still makes me weep buckets. But that's ok. It shouldn't rain for a while :D Frog energy brings about cleansing. Working with heart and throat chakra colours brings about cleansing of speech and emotions. All well and good until it's all eclipsed by the solar eclipse LOL - that was a doozy. Have drawn up a new mandala, not quite sure where it's going. Have to learn how to trust again so am taking it slow. A lot of new people are coming into my life and I'm opening my heart and accepting them for who they are and what they can bring into this, my experience of life. blessings and love xox Marg From the free downloadable base design, this is the Solstice Mandala I completed recently. This is to show you just what a difference colour and symbols make :) Have fun colouring your own! The design is available on the free downloads section in Mandala Art on my website or on my facebook album.
I'd like to have JUST ONE MONTH without any shit. Wait, JUST ONE YEAR! Without drama. Without pain. Without betrayal, hurt, anguish, loss. Without someone using and abusing me. Without anything bad happening.
Oh wait, then I'd probably be dead... |