All my life I have been searching for someone to take care of me.
I expected it.
I wanted it.
I needed it.
Yesterday I realised that the part of me that was doing this was my child self. Still anchored in my past abandonments, I was searching for a parent to take responsibility for and look after me and I was projecting that expectation onto every partner, every friend.
Those of you who have stuck with me over the years have understood this struggle far better than I. Thank you so much for staying the course - I deeply appreciate and love each one of you.
Yesterday, I became an adult. I finally let go the chains that bound me to the past. I put my child to bed and I stepped up and into my life.
I now take full and complete responsibility for my self, my life, my actions, my reactions, my behaviour, my words and my intent.
I am finally free.