It is the second day of Spring. Everything has changed. I am no longer in a relationship, which, while painful has opened my eyes to the immense possibilities a single life brings. For the first time in my life, I am truly single. Truly revelling in the unique and beautiful woman I am. No-one to please, except myself. No-one to answer to, except myself. No judgement, no condemnation, no criticism, no abuse for who and what I am from anyone - it is no longer accepted or tolerated in my life.
I revel in the joy that is blossoming while still holding the pain that I am feeling. Why not let it go? I hear you ask. Because it is important that I honour the emotion and release it slowly and with loving intent.
I still love the man. That won't change despite him thinking the opposite. To not love him any more means I didn't love him in the first place, not really. And I did. And I do. But I love me more. I love who I am becoming. I love that I know I have a finite time in which to do many of the things that up until now I have been too afraid to do. I love that I am becoming!
It's a glorious Spring day and I am going out into the beautiful world for a walk with my friends. And I shall feel connected on so many levels to so many people and to all the joy in this world. Despite the ache I bear in my heart, I realise that love will transform that pain over time to acceptance. And with acceptance comes release.
The Triple Goddess has walked with me all my life. I have been Maiden and Mother. Now I step gracefully and joyously into my Crone years with the intent of walking in my wisdom and my knowledge. I am still learning - I will never stop. I call on the power of my ancestresses and my Goddess and walk tall.