Well, that's the way things feel right now for me. I'm unmotivated, unimpressed, undesirable and unloveable. Well, at least that's the way things feel for me right now. I can't even be bothered picking up a paint brush.
I have however, cleaned up the kitchen. Sold off some furniture and started cleaning up the spare room. Cleaned out all my clothes and junk from my room. Dusted. Mopped. Vacuumed. Played with the Tigger monster...
So while I'm creatively stagnant, I'm cleaning. I wish I could clean out my head, too... It's all cluttered up with pain and grief again. Sigh.
I woke up this morning thinking about Love. Again. How it feels when you don't have it. How it feels when you do. I get the whole loving yourself thing, I do... But sometimes in the deep lonely dark of night, I crave for strong arms to hold me and a loving presence at my side. I miss that with all my heart.
Love - one of the cards from the Mandala Meditations Guidance Cards - the original painting is for sale :D
Thank you to the amazing Rebecca Ferguson for this amazing track...