I can't believe it's Sunday again! The week just rolled right by, with a large lesson from the Universe (as always) and some small and beautiful moments I will treasure forever.
There were a number of big issues this week which needed to be resolved. Copyright violations was the biggest - finding your art all over the web is a horrible feeling - especially in places you didn't put it! In the process of dealing with all the shock and angst this caused, I had to come to grips with the fact that my art - my SELF - is online and will stay there, forever. People are gonna steal it because they'll see it and say "OOO! A pretty picture! I want that picture for my blog, website, avatar..." and won't give a thought to who did the picture or where it came from.
I understand that, but it didn't make it any easier, or acceptable. So after a long talk and walk, I decided that there was no point fighting the inevitable. I would let the small stuff go and just go after the major violators.
In letting go of all that worry and anguish, I became centred and grounded and I began to draw again. And I fell into the moment with such grace and joy, that in a couple of days, I have created the most beautiful mermaid. I think I will title her "Siren Song" but then, I might not, LOL! It's not finished yet and most times, my art doesn't really have a name until I finish it and then I know what it's called.
I feel free. I feel released of burdens I have been carrying around for ever. On top of that release came another 'in your face' moment, where I was attacked online for expressing a factual, solidly researched opinion, a truth. The attack was malicious, nasty and childish. I finally saw it for what it was much later in the day, but the initial response was to recoil with fear and shock. I had to ask myself WHY I reacted the way I did and realised it was rooted in emotion and past pain. The journey for me was to unravel the emotion from the behaviour and to re-program myself. The time for old patterns of behaviour and responses are over. It is time to learn new responses, new behaviours to accompany the new me.
I feel I am slowly stretching my wings and learning to flap them. The day will come one day when I learn how to fly.
Glad you are on the journey with me, my friends :) Come fly with me!
Love and Blessings