I like to vent and purge my pain in words... and behind the scenes, I was working on something new. I was compelled to finally pick up my brushes and follow my muse (and my compass). And so, on this powerful full moon and eclipse, at the change of the season, I give you my newest work. It's not finished completely, but I was pushed to post it on facebook yesterday and today on my website. It's all about rebirth and fire, about the coming of wisdom and the passing away of all that was.
I am minded by two things right now - I have NO power over my past except what I think in my head - because that's the only place it still exists. It's all gone - all of it, as one day I will be too. I dwell on death, because death is the final journey and I'm still living this one. It gives me a sense of the finite and of what matters. Death doesn't scare me, the not knowing does. Which is why we can't live in the future either, because doing that paralyses us.
All we have is this breath, this moment. THIS is life.
My son posted something on his wall the other day - I found it hilariously profound:
"Forgiveness means giving up all hope of a better past..."
And this from the amazing Ara (which echoes the mandala in so many profound ways):
I give you
And this beautiful song is running round in my head, healing. From my beautiful brother and sister of the heart - Sammy and Kylie Horner (AKA The Sweet Sorrows) in tribute to our wonderful friend, Alex Legg :